you'd know that my house is freezing.
you'd know that I'm a picky eater. and now my kids are picky eaters and I don't understand why.
you'd know that I drink a Pepsi every night before I go to bed. and I used to do sit-ups. and I used to be able to say that I never had a cavity. and I used to be much, much shorter.
if you really knew me, you'd know that I want to be a writer and sometimes I think that I am. you'd know that I listen to music ALL the time. to wake me up. to put me to sleep. in the car, in the shower, when I'm sad, when I'm happy, when I'm not even thinking about anything.
you'd know that I listen to hip-hop, yeah, I know I'm old, but I listen to hip-hop-- and it was mine before it was yours. You'd know that I swear all the time, usually under my breath or in my mind, or when I'm alone in my car.
if you really knew me you'd know that I have a weird fingernail habit that I don't really want to talk about right now because you wouldn't understand anyway.
you'd know that I don't drink as much water as I should, or floss as often as I should, and deep down I don't think anyone does.
you'd know I have a hard time making eye contact with people, especially OTHER people. I hate small talk and polite conversations and fake moments with people I don't care about. You'd know I hate the idea of courtesy laughs but I still laugh when things aren't funny.
if you really knew me you'd know I'm afraid of taking off my shirt. I'm afraid of spiders and boring people, but I'm no longer afraid of my dad.
you'd know that I was extremely average in high school and sometimes I'm afraid that I still am. you'd know the fire still burns within me and sometimes I can feel it going out but it's here right now and I'm going to let it burn.
Post-Mortem
1 month ago
"Sometimes I can feel it going out but it's here right now and I'm going to let it burn."
ReplyDeleteI like this a lot.
A lot, a lot.
It affected me as I sit here listening to the same song on replay for over an hour.
"you'd know I have a hard time making eye contact with people, especially OTHER people. I hate small talk and polite conversations and fake moments with people I don't care about. You'd know I hate the idea of courtesy laughs but I still laugh when things aren't funny."
ReplyDeleteI hate courtesy laughs. Like in church when people feel like they are obligated to start their talk with a joke. Nothing makes me more angry.
I'm excited for this "real talk" thingy
I think I'm going to use this prompt with new words for mine... I liked this a lot when we did it and I love this post. #REALTalk
ReplyDelete"if you really knew me, you'd know that I want to be a writer and sometimes I think that I am."
ReplyDelete"you'd know that I listen to hip-hop, yeah, I know I'm old, but I listen to hip-hop-- and it was mine before it was yours."
You are a writer, and a darn good one. Your the most honest person I know and I love that. Thank you!
You sir, are far from average.
ReplyDeleteCouldn't sleep. Reread your blog. So many posts that I hated that I forgot. So much inspiration. I noticed lines I stole from you about smashing spiders and obviously the duck poem and "don't forget the memories" and I think they were subconscious, but I wish I'd given you credit. I wish I could write like you. I love how you don't get stuck writing about the same topic or material. Your writing covers so many different things. And I love the flow of your writing. And you havent won enough awards for inspiring students. And you should be famous and get books and movies written about you, and then I will be able to say that I knew you.
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